I had that interview for placement today. I feel like it went really well (and I’m going to feel really stupid about putting that out on the internet if I don’t get the placement), but thinking it over tonight, and doing a little TAFE work, I’m starting to have doubts.
I’ve never done anything like this before. I should say, at this point; I’m studying a Cert IV in Allied Health Assistance, specialising in Speech Pathology & Occupational Therapy. My entire working life has been in retail. During this interview, I met a couple of the kids I could well be working with, and I observed some of the therapy going on. It’s so much responsibility, and because I’m studying by distance I have been mostly responsible for my own learning, leading to a feeling of gross inadequacy and under-preparedness now.
I mean, I’m passing the assessments and achieving competency in the units, but I think because I’ve been doing it all myself it doesn’t feel like real study that will actually prepare me to work is such a foreign and demanding environment. I am certain that almost as soon as I start a placement, they’ll realise I actually have no idea and I’ll be humiliated.
As I said in my previous post; I’ve never really tried for anything before. This is pretty big, and it’s something I really want to succeed at, something I could see myself doing for a long time. I really want to do it well, But, my track record of successful ventures thus far is zero, and my record for failure is pretty significant (all those courses I enrolled in after high school, not to mention high school itself).
Watch this space, I guess.
The best is yet to come(?)